FilthI got rid of a lot of things,Small stuff, big stuff, things that keep memories.I trashed old photos I burned old stories.I even deleted past history.This one time I broke that vase,Then I lost a bracelet,I'm a disgrace.I threw out laughter; I threw out tears;I shedded clothes; I burned fears;I forgot gifts most dear.But I haven't been able to get away,In my mind all that stuff stays.All these things gone,But the images of them will forever be strong.I can wash away the filth any day,But the dirt will still stay.
the cavethere is nothing in this place.so empty smoothness surrounds me always,I'd rather try and catch my breathsilently by myself.some days I wish for this placeothers hatred turns my anger to grace.I crave the freedom no one knowsbut then the loneliness overthrows,all my common sense is gonebut then it's replaced by someone.my hands always coldthin blood runs old.I wonder when this cycle will stopwill they ever change the clock.please try to understandI'm at odds with my own brain.I just want to hidelike a childin my mind.
Pure SinI hold back shivers when I am so closeYour fingers roaming like my mindMy skin sends warmth in a small doseYour fingers my body they bind.It is silly, like two kids playingThat you hide such small touches from others.I sigh because later I know I will be the one crying,Trying to hide feelings and smother everything that bothers.Yet we meet at the same place,Different times,Touches feel even betterKisses I can only await.I sigh after and leave full of regretAnd passion.I will never tell youAny of these things, because I know thenI will relinquish my heartAnd have it crushed.I cannot recover from you.Defeat already near.I push these thoughts away in fear.
ShellSee through and brokenToo bad nothing's thereSad to see someone so cold
ThreeSometimes long ago,When the grown was covered in white snow,I left this place in my mind,And traveled the world through my own ways.I got no where reallyThen someone showed me a map.She decided to tag alongBut I said the road might be too long.I carried her on my back,but soon she got really strong,And now and again she carries me along.Then when the snow was melting,we both met another,one weak tall thingThat we thought we might break.Instead she surprised us bothand she shattered our worlds.But we kept on walkingwith no where in the world.When the rain was pouringWe found shelter.When one was hungryFood came about.Somehow I remember,but yet I forget how often we did fall.There at the edges of my mindI still like to think about the timewhen we smiled so bright,when the world was imaginaryWhen we didn't have to say goodbye.And now and ThenWe say hello again.
WhenI fell in love whenThere was the wind blowing sweetlyAnd my cheeks got just a bit coldLike rose dew falling slowlyI fell in love when I was toldThen once I fell in love with no oneWell someone that I dreamed ofI wondered all the time if they were realOr if my head was just full ofThings that I wished I could feelI fell in love whenThose spring days cried pink petalsThe apple trees bloomedAnd it rained sweet gentle kissesI fell in love when I couldThen another time I fell in loveOr was it lust I can't tell...But I remember wellThat such a time will always dwellWhen I fell in loveMy memory is drifting to my imaginationOr was it just another new morningWhen the sun hurts my eyesWhen my limbs are relaxedMy muscles deep into the mattressBoth melted togetherOnce I fell in lovewhen feelings couldn't be helpedOnce I fell in loveand once I fell outWe all fallI wish I landed more gently.